Wednesday, 19 September 2018

Eirwen's lament.



The great council and declarations had ended hours ago and the Caer was quieter now, just the odd servant or maid crossing the courtyard far below. As was her habit when life became difficult or confusing Eirwen would come here, to sit on a wool-stuffed leather cushion she’d bring with her, placed on the great timber buttress which protruded from the wall of this high eastern quarter-tower. She pulled the deep, fleece-lined hood of her cloak up and over her head, as although now it was almost summer, the gale that sliced across these tall battlements was cold still and swept down from the frigid vastness of the high north untamed. It nibbled at her ears but she revelled in it, as it scoured her senses into more orderly furrows and the thrumming of the ragged banner above her was like music to her ears. It wasn’t just the stunning views across Fro Camelon, Linn Gwidan and their surrounding majesty, it was the feeling of freedom which had brought her back here over the years, like a dove to its cote. This dependable but icy northern blast, here at her most secluded and secret spot had always seemed to strip away the meaningless and confirm the significant in her tumbling thoughts, but this freezing wind provided no such helpful analysis today.

The naïve, stick-like carving of the King Stag of Galedon she had gouged into the timbers of this massive buttress with her dagger so long ago remained. It made her smile now as she fingered it absently with a little sadness, thinking back to a much simpler time when she had not a care in the world and no comprehension of the responsibility, nor the depth of feelings coming-of-age would summon within her.

Confined to a much quieter Caer, she had roamed the hallways, chambers and pathways of CaerCamelon like a disconsolate ghost, completely immersed in her own tragic thoughts and circumstance. Eirwen had retreated to the inner sanctity of her mind, like a wounded vixen crawling back into her lair and sneaking up here each evening. Her pale and lovelorn figure had been the subject for concern for every single person who lived and worked in this fortress, as their Princess was well-loved. The hallways, reception chambers and passageways had seemed deserted compared to what had come before but it had suited her mood admirably tonight. Now this great fortress was gearing-up once more, this time for holy Beltain and despite her sour mood, she couldn’t ignore the tickle of excitement at this major event which was fast approaching.

Dawn had arrived barely an hour ago, signalling the mid-day mark and the early summer sunshine finally penetrated the towering eastern clouds, throwing up a pale yellow fan of a thousand shattered rays. They lit the great river and its harbour below with their elemental glory, making the huge lake which formed the Cawg y Gwidan look aflame.  From Eirwen’s perch on these eastern battlements, together they looked like an enormous ladle, as the ‘Bowl of Gwidan’ reached towards her like a huge liquid-metal plate on the land. It hung from the sinuous curves of Arglwydd Linn Gwidan in the distance, where she finds the coast and broadens into white-flecked ocean. Linn Gwidan’s iron-grey, rippling waters lap at the elm timber wharfing of Porth Camelon, before snaking west and passing this eastern palisade almost directly below and she loved to look down between her dangling feet from the stark dizzying heights to the rocky ground below, as the fear always made her blood fizz and Lydia fret.

Eirwen heard a high-pitched scream in the sky above her, causing her eyes to flick upwards and she saw the soaring Eagle, so high it was almost a dot in the sky as it circled the great Caer. Bledri nudged her hand with his cold wet nose and she smiled down at him, patting his broad shaggy head and making his tail swish happily. “I’ve seen it Bledri my cu-cŵn!” She thanked him with the common endearment and Bledri held up his enormous and recently wounded paw. Eirwen looked down her nose at him. “It’s all better now darling.” She said smiling, but her eyebrow arched as she looked again. “It’s the wrong paw anyway you rogue!” She laughed, dropping his shaggy foreleg and looking back up to the heavens. Eirwen quickly re-focused on this huge monarch of the skies as she stepped her wings, elongated her body and began to plummet.

Eirwen had decided the sex of this fabulous bird immediately and even felt a tenuous connection with this gimlet-eyed and feathered Branwen of the heavens. Her heart tripped and her spirit soared at this wonderful omen of freedom and just days from holy Beltain, it was particularly notable.  Wide-eyed, Eirwen followed the arc of this streaking missile as the bird accelerated, ominously folding her wings back. Down she came, arrowing from the sky and the bird of prey suddenly broke the dizzying plummet, her taloned feet extending and she struck. Whatever unfortunate bird had been the Eagle’s target it exploded in a sudden puff of small feathers, as the huntress slammed into the frail frame of her prey, talons snapping shut around the bony carcass. Casually tearing the head from the captured bird, she flipped gracefully upside down into a breath-taking and swooping curve, which propelled this ultimate predator back into the heavens in the blink of an eye. Eirwen’s eyes glittered and her pulse was racing as she sent a secret prayer to Arglwydd Branwen at that moment, in sincere gratitude for her blessing. She almost turned to speak to Lydia about it then before realising abruptly again that she missed her constant companion, as Lydia was visiting her sick mother at the shore-side village in Gabrantofica, that wild eastern coastal land she hailed from.

Eirwen only really appreciated Lydia fully when she was away, as it dawned on her each time just how much she depended on her. It wasn’t just the work she did for her personally which in itself was invaluable, on reflection it was her unbroken loyalty and down-to-earth pragmatism that she missed the most. Regardless of the young girl’s naivety in many areas of courtly life, she had a bright mind and a sharp wit too, which always lifted Eirwen’s spirits. They had laughed together every day she could remember, since that day she had agreed to become her hand-maiden and now that Eirwen was at her most melancholic, she missed her all the more.

“Come-on Bledri, let’s take a walk around the battlements before we break our fast, it will blow some more cobwebs away!” She sighed and Bledri stood happily, giving his mistress a little woof in response, his tail wagging. 
They had just crested the tall flight of steps leading up to the fighting platform of the northern battlements, when a familiar young arwein approached her breathlessly and with his prominent ears glowing, as he had clearly been tearing around this great fortress looking for her.

“Your Highness Princess Eirwen!” He panted and Bledri licked his familiar face, making the boy blush and begin to stutter.

“Spit it out Calder.” She smiled at the squire. Bledri did his best to distract him as he gained his breath, pushing his cold wet nose up one leg of his woollen shorts.

“Ddugesi Meleri of the Myrun Isles is here my lady, she asked me to let you know.” Calder said between breaths and trying to wriggle from Bledri’s discomforting greeting. Eirwen’s face lit-up at the news.

“Did she say anything else Calder?” She asked him, turning to head back down the steep ramp of steps.

“Ddugesi Meleri is here to see King Ederus my Lady, but she also asked that you join her after her meeting with His Royal Highness, in the western croeso room.” He told her earnestly as he followed her down the stairs with Bledri at his heels, standing easily as tall as the boy and with his tail wagging happily.

Eirwen paced the flagstones of the large croeso chamber, not daring to hope that Lady Meleri could persuade her father to allow her to begin the new term at the Ynys Myrun College and end her confinement. Her father had not told her she would or would not be returning to complete her studies, and she had been too scared of his answer to ask him.

King Ederus had remained largely aloof since the dressing-down he had given her on her return with Olwydd that day. Her father had regaled her mercilessly in his private chambers and words like ‘irresponsible’, ‘rash’, ‘over-indulged’ and ‘immature’ had washed over her. Olwydd Hîr had also been present during this berating and Eirwen would have been mortified at his presence in the past, but they had become close friends on their return to CaerCamelon that awful day. His huge presence had actually bolstered her courage, as Olwydd had nodded encouragement to her periodically, from where he leaned against the wall by the hearth in his easy manner. She had felt the support of his great warrior spirit in the room with her and seen the same support in his eyes, as she recounted honestly to her father every detail of her overnight sojourn and the subsequent events which had occurred. She had come to realise that one of the most feared warriors in all of Prydein had a soft heart, at least in her regard. She knew fine-well too, that his love was fatherly and honourable and she felt the same way about him, as if he was the father she would have chosen that oppressive evening, given a choice. Saving her life too had sparked that filial connection, it had for her anyway.

Eirwen continued pacing the doeskin floor rugs, now in deep thought. An attentive arwein came in with raised eyebrows but she waved him away before he could open his mouth, and he withdrew tactfully. It felt like the hours of her life were being sucked from her soul as she waited impatiently and yet she was still surprised when the honourable Ddugesi Meleri, her tutor and mentor strode into the room. She appeared suddenly in the doorway with her usual hand-maiden scuttling after her, like one of the harbour ducklings chasing its mother.

“There you are darling!” Meleri smiled broadly, holding out her right hand.

Eirwen took her bony hand and bowed deeply, kissing the solid silver, star and crescent-moon ring of their order with due reverence, before rising and hugging her matriarch warmly.

“I’ve never been more glad to see you!” Eirwen blurted and Meleri broke the embrace, gripping her shoulders.

“Come child let us talk in my lodgings, as we have much to discuss!” She smiled, taking Eirwen’s arm and leading her down the familiar passage to the guest chambers, her walking cane tap-tapping on the flagstones. Out of the blue, Eirwen felt the gloomy weight lift from her shoulders and a calming, joyous feeling surge through her. Her steps became lighter, her chin came up and her hopes suddenly flared brightly again. 

Beside her, the Druiden’s eyes glittered with the effort.



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